How have I changed in the past two years? Hmm. When I first read this prompt, I didn’t think that I had changed that much, but upon reflection, I’ve come further than I thought.
Two years ago, I was just going into my second term as a first-year university student. I had thrown myself head first into my first term and falling into a world of excessive drinking, false friendships and uncertainty. I spent the vast majority of Freshers/Welcome Week back and forth between spewing my guts out after one too many vodka shots and crying down the phone to my mum about how awful it was there. I was told that in Freshers I would make best friends, but in all honestly I don’t remember half of the people I hung out with that week.
I came to university as quite a new Christian, but I realised quite quickly that I was turning into one of those hypocrites that I had been so desperate to avoid becoming. Yes, I got involved with a church quickly and I sought after friendships with Christians, but away from all that, back at my flat I shared with seven other people, I knew I was still stuck in my old ways. I began to feel challenged on the way I was acting and the things I was doing and whether or not they were making me a good witness for Christ. I knew that I had to change.
At Momentum 2015, a Christian summer festival, Joel and I went to a seminar about relationships. One of the things that really stuck with me – other than that it’s really important that you speak to your partner with kindness, ha. We had a good giggle at that one before back to bickering – was that in order to have a completely fulfilling relationship or marriage, you need to be completely satisfied as a single person. I have never known what it is to be a single Christian, so within the past two years, the Lord has definitely used that time to allow me to flourish and become my own person and experience my own faith. I got involved with the Christian Union and I even co-led it last year, which was a big step in my faith. Being such a new and inexperienced Christian, I didn’t think I had much to offer or could cope with the responsibility but the Lord doesn’t give us more than we can handle.
Now, my faith is stronger than ever.
While my fiction writing is taking some time out, I have found a new creative outlet in blogging. I was encouraged to start a blog after I mentioned the idea but not really sure what I would do with it. As I’m sure a lot of writers can testify to, I often don’t know what I’m writing about until I sit down and write it. Sure, plans are great, but once I start writing, if I get a sudden train of thought, I have to run with it. For me, blogging has been an exciting new project and I have learnt so much already. My hobby compliments Joel’s photography and it’s so much to be able to work together on new projects. I hope that this year, however, I can find the time and motivation to pour some of my efforts into writing fiction again. To publish a novel has been one of my biggest dreams and I would like to make that a reality.
In March 2014, I was healed from PTSD during a counselling session. I’d struggled with symptoms of depression for about three years, and lived quite unhappily, not knowing what it was that I had. Now, I am happier, stronger and I have never felt that I couldn’t face the day, no matter what has been thrown at me.
This time, I’m going into my last second term ever. I have loved my university experience, but I can’t wait to start my life properly. I can’t wait to come back and throw myself into the next season that the Lord has for me. I am not the same person that arrived in Nottingham in 2013 as a person who had no idea how the next three would pan out. When I leave, I won’t even be the same person I am now, writing this. I am changed.
We are ever-changing, ever-evolving.
Have you had any life-changing experiences in the past two years? How have you changed, personally? Chat with me below!